Healing

Why does it always seem like
the healing hurts more
than the initial pain?

Why are the wounds
that lie the deepest
the ones hardest to heal?

Why is pain inflicted
by those who
claim they care?

And why do I harbor
my deepest pains
when healing is already offered?

Why won't I trust
the only One capable
of healing me completely?

My faith is just too small
to let the Healer in
I know I am afraid
that I'll be hurt again.

So I'm asking now
my Father
please be tender in your healing
you're holding the heart of me.